Random....

Its raining cats and dogs...terribly cold here and I remember it was also a rainy day 25th of June 2009...weird huh? Even the weather mourns Michael Jackson's untimely exit. Cant believe its a year already. Now that is an example of what I call a sensitive guy...always with a 'please'...'yes ma'am' and 'thank you' on his lips. I imagine him singing his wo/men to sleep. or maybe when he has a quarell with his partner, who then gives him the silent treatment, I imagin him getting close to said partner, looking deep into his/her eyes and just saying:

''Another day has gone, I'm still all alone, How could this be, That You're not here with me'

And then s/he would be forced to acknowledge that by saying:

''Dont start Michael I'm here..I'm standing right in front of you'

Then Micheal with love in his eyes draws her close to him and wispers ''I'm sorry baby, i dont want to know who is right or wrong, I just want us to be right''

"but Michael this keeps...''

''...please baby dont say a word,'' Micheal interrupts ''can I sing to you please, its playing in my head and I want you to hear it before I put it on paper''

''I dont know if I....'' gets cut short by Michael's voice

''This time gonna do my best to make it right
Can't go on without you by my side
Hold on
Shelter come and rescue me out of this storm
And out of this cold I need someone
Oh why oh why why why
If you see her
tell her this from me
All I need is
One more chance at love''

''awwww...baby, I forgive me...just hold me Micky, never let me go''

Then laying her down on the couch and giving her room to snuggle close to him, and when he knows she is warm enuff in his embrace he say...

''I'll hold you anytime baby..everytime...In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow,In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part For You're Always In My Heart''

Na wa oooooooooo, Michael Jacky...imma missing you jare. If only my boyfriend has quarter of the sensitivity you had, I'd be a very happy woman. I miss you


On a more random note, I've been limping for a while now...if you count two weeks as a while. I cant say it started all of a sudden because I've noticed that my pelvic joint tends to freeze for like 2 mins if I stand up after sitting in one position for too long...I've noticed this for the past three years... but now oooo, two/three weeks ago i notice that the freezing has gone from 2 mins...to 24hrs

Now i'm dragging my feets all over the office, when hopping into a cab...when climbing Okada, fine girl like me...its so pronouced that one bike man said:

''Aunty no worry, I go invite you go my church, one prayer and e go heal one time''

I went to see a physiotherapist at Reddington who said its strain...I no know watin that one mean, this is 2 weeks man...I went to C.R.I and I was given anti-inflammatory pain relievers...which worked, but which finished 3days ago...bringing me back to limping stage again.

My mum been insisting I go do an x-ray...and with the way she was insisting I got suspicious and asked:

''You better tell me what you think...cos its unlike you to be bugging me on phone for x-ray''

''What have you got against doing an x-ray'

''Nothing, but why are you so pro-Xray all of a sudden''

Pause

''Mum??'' the alarms had gone off in my head...its not like my mum to go mute

''hmmm...I just want you to go and check because my doctor (mumsi is a nurse) said maybe the joints around ur pelvic area may be wearing off/out''

''Huh? watin be that?'' I said with panic. I was beginning to imagine all sort of things

''See no need for alarm, you just need to know so they can know what to do''

See me see wahala oh...how does bone just wear off...sharply I called my doctor in Reddington

''L see what mumsi said ooo, all these warri doctors don de talk over sabi sabi things'' As if saying so lessens the credibility of the doctors

Pause

'L??? are you there'' My heart beat was like doing 3 beats in 2 seconds

''I'm here nutty...academically its possible, its called *insert big grammer here* of the Femur''

Well I had these conversation two days ago...havent done X-Ray yet because Aunt Flow is visiting and I can imagine the doctors face if I get on his table and pull down my knickers... so I'm waiting for Aunty flow to go home and then I'll go see whats up with my hips...

But which kin bones+wearing+off talk be that? fear de catch me ooo...God have mercy.


Have a lovely Weekend



N'J



P.S: And I have a date tomorrow...how in hell do you wear high heels limping. This world is just a wicked place.

Devil just dress far from me oooooo. because i'm not finding all this rubbish funny at all. It wont be in your best interest if you wanna be starting something...

P.P.S: Will the damn rain just stop now...???

I've been accused of Over Analysing...

...and sadly i'm guilty as charged.


Come on Nutty... dont let them say such things about us

The earlier my brain accepts its true and that he (the brain) is the main reason we are being accused the better for him. eh yes...my brain is a he.

Its true...I agree it is true, I find myself over-analyzing even the smallest of details...a gesture given or not given must have a meaning behind it... a smile that doesnt reach the eyes means something, a story that doesnt add up, i would never let go until I get to the bottom of it. Initially I thought its how everyone behaves you know... until I discovered that some people just go with the flow....and are happier for it.

Are you saying we are not happy?

eh...I haven't said so brain, but are we happier knowing all the things we know/find out? I dont think so. The time has come to just Stop...infact what do I fear so much that I always have to be seeking secrets and hidden conspiracies behind every word or look or smile. Madness in practice.

I want to stop it and am reading an article on How to stop Over Analysing now the problem is I'm trying to read in between the lines...haba!! trying to read in between the lines of a self help article. Abi make I just branch Yaba left for Psychiatric evalution...cos this is borderline crazy.


Anyways its a bad habit I'm gonna stop...soon. I no be FBI nor CIA... so the next time I see my boss going beet red as he walks on one side very close to the wall, with shifty eyes, i'm not going to try and reason that the probability of that fart smell being associated with him is very high. No...I'll just assume he went red for no reason. Yeah...I'm gonna use my brain for lighter things oh jare...those when wan lie should lie...I will allow you, I wont raise my eyebrows...I wont wonder why, I may not believe, but I wont try and imagine why you lied. My brain will be used for other things, not for worry over why, when, how,etc...I will join the happy people league. My brain will be used for lighter things as shown in the pic


Huh? for that only?



sharrraaap there....Hakuna Matata



an·a·lyze (n-lz)
tr.v. an·a·lyzed, an·a·lyz·ing, an·a·lyz·es
1. To examine methodically by separating into parts and studying their interrelations.



N'J

This and That

Lethargic:

Is how I feel right now…aka sluggish, tired weary, lackluster etc etc o jare, I can’t find the other synonyms to use off hat.I need bad azz sugar high right now but can’t find chocolates anywhere(very unlike me) and who told me now to stop drinking or rather promise myself to try and avoid alcohol? Typical case of shooting one’s self in the foot, because really alcohol after 5pm really used to work in my interest…at least to ease up after all the days activity (*sighs*).Right now I’m in the office just feeling blank…imma need love urgently but that’s another risk on its own because the love that follows us sometimes sha…de pain belle.

But see me oh, I actually wanted to just holla at Lovepaprika, Kay9, 2cute4u, neefemi and the silent readers because you all been making me feel welcome up in here and I appreciate…but now it’s beginning to sound like a post I can complete and say ‘yeah I actually posted something worthwhile today’ (Yippe!! )…see why I love you? You guys inspire me for ehm..good things.


Meanwhile I can no longer understand what is going on in the streets of Lagos..commuting nowadays is becoming another painful thing to face or is it just me? I don’t own a car yet, but getting to and fro work has never been an issue because I have peeps willing to give me a ride here and there (*bats eyes*)…yes na, I’m good company or haven’t you noticed. Anyways sometimes that small imp in me sometimes misses my own company and would rather use the public transport in an attempt to be alone (yes oh..alone with strangers around u is still being alone) than ride with a friend….well nowadays it no longer seems wise sha…because of traffic, the bus drivers have now decided to leave their normal lane and drive off lane, at the corner…making the normal two lanes into three…now the thing with this ‘illegal’ lane is that it is bumpy as hell..yes na its not a ‘road’ so it isn’t tarred…now see how the driver would be speeding like mad enjoying the ride with the bus practically leaving the ground, just like in the movies… everyone would be shouting

‘’ye!! Slow down ooo’…

’’oga take am easy’’

‘’you are mad!! Are you high or something? Stop this car, you done lost the mind Gawd gave you!!’’ (see English speaking)

the bus driver would usually laugh it off and keep going saying some nonsense like ‘’Abegi una too de fear’’…..me at those times I’ll just be singing ‘’Jesus take the wheel’’ I cannot understand the madness anymore….how I miss my aje butter life…where dad would call and be like ‘’…where are you so I can send the driver to come pick u’’ or ‘’whenever u know you are leaving school for home, make sure you tell us so we can come get you’’ as in soft life…no stress…I was made for the easy life o jare, as in for real…all this adulthood+go find out how life is+go make your own way in life+you are independent now etc is not what I bargained for oh, it would be crazy to expect my parents to still be doing that all the way from warri for me in Lagos but eh…nothing wrong in wishing one rich man would come and take over from where they stopped na…I’m just saying in case there is one rich dude there reading…lol. Besides Neyo if you are out there please note how Independent I am enough to acknowledge that I’m made for easy life, which entails being spent on by a man…after all Adam was made to take care of Eve as Eve helps him out with his never ending daily issues (read your bible) In fact it was the day she decided to go to the farm so she can have her own (independent woman)dat wahala started...(you really must read that bible)


Anyways its Friday and imma going out there to have a good time this weekend…have a good weekend ahead. Do your thing...

xoxo

PS: 3 post in one week? Ha...there really must be magic in blogsville



N'J