Saturday, July 28, 2012

God Forgive My Office oooo...

I prayed that prayer some days back. You know I lost my job late last year after the surgery I went for and the three months I spent recovering.

I got another one end of March this year (Thank God)... more responsibilities and better Job description

Now EFCC has listed us as top 20 companies to be arraigned in court for this fuel subsidy scam ...:(

So since last month we have been working at home for half pay... I don tire oooo

I get on my knees 

I've asked God to forgive the office for the 1.3billion Naira thiefry (covers face in shame) they are being accused of...for my sake na. I dont know how to function outside a structured work environment.

Which kine local trouble be this???

Do you think God will forgive them for my sake? or is it asking too much?

Worried Nutty Jay

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

We Are The Choices We Make

Oscar Wilde once said  ‘Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else’s opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation’.

I tend to agree with him because most people are basically living their lives for others… and I don’t mean that in a good way, I am not talking about how you want to be blessed so that you can be a blessing to others… which is good, but unfortunately that isn’t what I’m up at this time of the night to talk about

We live our life consciously or subconsciously to please others…As toddlers all we sought for was the approval of our parents, channelling our energy into doing all they expect from us just to get that smile of approval or that twirling in the air as they raise us up high in the air whilst we giggle in excitement. 

We went to school and sought for the approval of our teachers…and getting good grades became our goal because we heard our father say 'My boy is going be tops in his class'... or just to get in his good books...In high school, there was this underlying need to get the approval of our friends…Doing all we could think of to be one of the ‘cool kids’

Then we grew up go to the university, graduated, and began doing things to get approval from the society…Became doctors even though our passion is fashion designing, got married at 26 even though we knew we were settling for less but we did it anyway because someone passed the memo that age 30 is the cut off mark for ladies and they have to make sure they marry the 'available' man immediately before it’s too late, so we did even though we knew he didn't tick even half of our check list...we go to all the meaningless social functions on weekends even though all we want to do is curl up and sleep on Saturdays to rejuvenate after a hard work week, at least for health reasons, but no...we still go for the meaningless functions anyway so that we can grace the pages of City People. Our decisions are lined up with family/friends/colleagues and societal expectations so that we are not perceived as social misfits.

Doesn't it give you a headache just thinking about it? When exactly do we start living for ourselves?  Doing the things we want because and just because it’s what we want to do and damn the consequences of the actions and/or what anybody has to say about it good or bad... at least you made them for yourself!!! Yourself!!!!!!!!!

When do we start living our lives for our own self??? Are we so far gone that we forget that we are responsible and accountable for every choice we make, how we choose to live our lives, good or bad, regardless of whom or what influences these decisions? So why don't you do the smart thing by making these choices yours... why don't you do it because it brings you fulfilment, and not because of ‘what will people say’... what are we so afraid of? Not getting the necessary approvals from our circle of influence??

A dear friend of mine said the following lines to me recently:  

'Choose your path, don't let your path choose you
Choose your friends don't let your friends choose you
Make things happen, so that what happens around doesn't define you
Because either way you will be held responsible and accountable for your actions
So why not be the cause and sole reason for those actions'    ( I paraphrased)

My advise: Don't waste your time living someone else's life...because you see...ultimately...we ARE the CHOICES we make.

Nutty J...