Thursday, April 8, 2010

...On the subject of TRUST

Hello…can’t believe I haven’t put up anything this week…Imma so blaming it on the flu I’ve had since Monday, it’s bad enough trying to go thru the day’s work, not to talk about blogging…but I’ve been reading a lot of blogs though

Anyways something strange has been happening of recent…people been asking me

‘ Nutty do you mean you don’t trust me?’ or

‘’Sweetheart…I can trust you right?’’

My usual response is ‘’I wasn’t raised to trust anyone...’’


While growing up…my dad drummed it into my ears ‘’…don’t trust anyone, people are bound to fail you and sometimes for the sheer pleasure of failing you’’

Initially I thought he had started with all this his many talks again…but as I grew up, or rather as I grew older I realized that he was darn right. Its life and we are all humans…humans are prone to have feelings…promises are made consciously or unconsciously based on these feelings. You know you check out your weight and you weigh above the norm and you get upset and vow…I’m never gonna eat that cake again. You have made a promise to yourself based on that feeling…or you read on woman empowerment, on how women should stand for their rights and not allow any man raise a hand on them and you are moved by it and you promise yourself never to be a victim of a man who beats up on his lady…or how about how you wake up and see the wrong being done in Jos via TV and this moved you and you make a decision to do something to help the families of the victims…

Well these promises you didn’t make to anyone but yourself…so whose gonna frown when u go for that naming ceremony and eat that cake, after all you rationalize that it’s only a piece of cake in three week na and you will jog it off…or when 7months later your new boyfriend slaps you for talking bad about his mama…and you reason it out and say ‘…I had it coming, I have never seen him this mad, I probably pushed him to the wall, he does love his mother’…or how about when office pressure distracts you from everyday day life and by the time you remember Jos, the fights had calmed down and anyways the government seem to be doing well for the victims family….

And then by the time you realize that you made so and so promise some yrs back u make them again and promise yourself vehemently this time to keep them….and the circle goes and on


So sometimes I get a blank stare when I say ‘’I wasn’t brought up to trust anyone’’ and sometimes I get convincing speeches on why I should have faith in people

All I say…and keep saying is that we are humans….and humans make 70% (or thereabout) of their decisions based on feelings…but feelings are fickle and subject to change in a second…Today I feel good, tomorrow I may feel ‘un-good’ so how the hell am I supposed to rely so heavily on another human being when I myself fail myself sometimes?

Yes I can understand working side by side with people and trusting that if they mess up, it was because they couldn’t help it…not some planned sort of ‘messing up’ (this type is the plain nonsense some people do, they plan in advance to mess u) , but to expect people to be all they can be, or expecting them to be all you and G*d know they can be? Nah…not me…as far as I’m concerned, that is the quickest route to Disappointments. And I find out that when ever I forget those words my dad said those years ago, I find myself on the laps of Mr. Disappointment

On the question of ‘Sweet heart…are you saying I cannot trust you?’’

My answer is simple:

Trust me not to cheat on you
Trust me to be the best for you while we are dating
Trust me that I will never lie to you or steal
Aside that….
Trust me at your own risk

Maybe I'm just a pessimist...maybe one day i'll learn how y'all do it...but for now, I really cannot lay it all out for one human it Mother, Father or Lover...I lay it all for God. I haven't finished trusting myself step at a time. Me first, then you.

But if trusting others completely, works for you and has never led you to disappointments then show me the way...when I grow up, I'll try it out.

But till then...I trust you to understand

**blows kisses**



  1. lol @ i'll trust you to understand...i'm not sure there is any more meaning of trust than that though really....i think we give the name trust to much value, or maybe i don't know what trust fully entails....but like you said to my man i will say ....

    Trust me not to cheat on you
    Trust me to be the best for you while we are dating
    Trust me that I will never lie to you or steal
    trust that you can tell me anything and everything and you wont be any less of a man and even if we break up, it will not get out....

    its really that simple


  3. hmm, trust is not such an easy thing, i've always found it hard to throw cautions away and just trust anyone.... i think i just try to expect people to be human beings: they have the capacity to dissappoint u.... thats life

    ur daddy taught u well jare

  4. I SO feel this post and your stand!

    hard luck about the flu,hope you feel better now :-))

  5. True talk jare..But still, you gotta trust a bit,Cause it goes both ways.happy weekend.
    Please hope you get better..

  6. Hmmm, You never said better.
    Hope you're voting for 2cute's poem titled FOR ME YOU AND THEY?
    go to
    Show her some love girl..
    She deserves it..

  7. @ All: thank you very much for your comments...and as for the flu i'm still sniffing, guess its something going round in my office...

    Sosexy: I just voted now for 2cute's poem... I dont know yet ow it works, but no wahala, she gats to win...

  8. I don't trust anybody. I just take statistics n rely more on peeps who fcuk up least. Sometimes i worry that i dont even trust God...

    Somebody should do a blogpost on ''Faith''.


Say it as you mean it... I can take it