Monday, March 28, 2016

I Am Stuck!!!

I am lying in bed tonight, disgruntled, a lot running through my mind and I feel stuck. I feel like everything and everyone around me is making significant progress or at least have got it all figured out for themselves... except me 

It is an annoying state of mind. I literally do not know what to do or even what I am doing (come to think about it). About anything 

And the fact that Nigeria seems to be folding up is not helping matters. 

The weather is constantly hot, there is no steady light, there is no fuel for generator, there is no fuel for my car that is bought effortlessly without queuing, inflation is unbearable. Did I mention that the weather is unbearably hot?

And to crown it up like I said, I really really feel stuck in a never ending circle!!

The public holiday ends today and work starts tomorrow and I am just not myself 

I am not happy. 

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Defining THE WILL OF GOD in Lay-man terms

Happy New Year my people

I wont allow this month crawl by without wishing you all a  H A P P Y N E W Y E A R

This month has been the longest I have experienced in ages, and it is still ongoing. It is still January. 

I will give you all the gist regarding all that has happened to me in this one month. It's crazy how one month can have so much highs and lows and highs and lows... phew!! story for another time. 

Okay so I have a lay man's explanation for what it means to find the will of God regarding a situation, and that's what I want to write about today. 


For everyone of us there is a story also known as a plan, that God has written/drawn out for us and for our life's journey. Right from before we were born.  This story goes according to what He wants (not according to what we wish). The plots, scenes and actions in this story have been written according to what He wants, and He has outlined  how and when these things will play out during your life time. All for His purpose 

Thus when we request something from Him, it is always in our best interest to ask Him first if what you are requesting is part of the story He has written for you. That is what is referred to as '...finding out the will of God concerning a matter' 

If what you seek is part of His will for you, then you receive your request effortlessly if it is in line with the season for you to receive it, and what you have requested for will come with peace, joy and rest of mind. 

However if it is not His will for you to have what you are requesting, if it is not in your story, dearest you will ask from everlasting to everlasting and it won't come to you. Especially if you are a beloved of God. You will pray and fast and try hard, and you will just be wasting energy and time because He won't allow that thing happen for you.  Hallelujah!! You see you need to trust what he said here, whether you trust in pain and tears and sorrow, you just need to trust His word when He says:

'For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end'.  Jeremiah 29:11

I'd love to just end the discussion here.  But I must say this though, there are times we persist and sulk and throw tantrums and insist and will rather die than let go of what we are asking for. Stubborn!! Most times you can keep asking and you still won't get it, but then again on some rare, very rare occassion you will get what you want, but trust me, it would not bring you the satisfaction you thought it would, it would steal your joy instead of bring you joy, as a matter of fact it will bring about bumps and gallops on your life's story and would make you go through a longer and tougher path through your life's journey.  

Don't let anyone deceive you, it is not easy trusting God every time and with every thing...sometimes you will trust in tears, in groanings, but trust him anyways. He holds all the cards. And one thing I know, He is good and even though sometimes it doesn't seem like that, believe anyway that He is good, and He is good to You.

Practice trusting God this year... trust Him to take you where He wants to take you to this year 2016...regardless of if it is where you had planned on going. You will be glad you followed Him 

Kisses and Hugs always

Nutty Jay 

Monday, December 14, 2015


I was studying about salt recently, and it would blow your mind just how much we can know if only we would use google the right way.  But the basic of all things salt, is that: it is essential to the health of people and animals and is used universally as a seasoning

Many of us who cook will agree with me that no matter how well you mix ingredients and add all the assorted meat parts in Africa, without salt in the food, it would be tasteless and will remain tasteless until you put a pinch of salt, or a teaspoon of salt, or a table spoon of salt, depending on how large a soup you are cooking. 

Thus salt isn't food itself, rather it is the substance that makes food tasty. It is the reason why we want to eat food. It brings out the taste in all the ingredients in the food. 

' are the salt of the earth...' Matthew 5:13

It would amaze you the things you can find out about yourself if only you read your bible. Jesus was saying to the believers at that time, and believers now, that we are the salt of the earth! You are the salt of the earth, I am the salt of the earth. The whole earth, little me I am the salt of the earth.  Meaning I have what it takes to add taste to this earth.  Isn't that amazing??

It makes me understand that whenever I find myself in an other wise tasteless environment, what is expected of me, by default, is to add taste to that environment. Do you know that for everytime you talk to a person, or join in a conversation you are supposed to leave that conversation or that person better than you met them? Yes you are.... that is what being the salt of the earth means

Many of us I know are on a journey of trying to discover the reason for which you were created, and I believe it would be revealed to you, however this is one purpose you do not need revelation on because it has already been revealed in the bible: YOU ARE THE SALT OF THE EARTH

'...the whole creation waits breathless with anticipation for the revelation of God's sons and daughter..' Romans 8:19

What are they waiting for? They are waiting for you and I to begin to do what Children of God are created to do, that is shine in dark situations, season tasteless circumstances, do good works so that your Father is glorified

 'Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.'  Matthew 5:16

The year 2016 approaches, and the time has come for you and I to begin to make a positive difference every where we find ourselves. You must begin to walk in concsiousness of who you are as a child of God, and begin to add taste where ever you go: in your family, in your neighbourhood, in your community, amongst your friends, in your church, in your city, in your state until you take the entire nation for Christ.  

Many times all you need to do is live an exemplary life, because  it is not about what you say, it is about what you do and how you are when no one is watching...people will see that exemplary life and want to be a part of the life you live. Do not waste your saltiness...because then you really wouldn't be reconciling anyone to God, which is the sole reason Christ died for us. Thus you would be doing nothing as a Christian except occupying space.

'...but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men'. Matthew 5:13b


Kisses and Hugs 

Nutty Jay 

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Fighting Temptation...

How do you fight temptation? Especially the type of temptation a part of you is willing to flirt with and see just how far you can go... 

Most times we psyche ourselves a lot and mentally check the items off the list one after the other:

- I'm stronger than this... I can actually go and nothing will happen

- For a couple of years now I've made right choices regarding this, so it doesn't matter anymore, this weakness no longer has power over me

- I'm on fire for the Lord... I can will myself not to do this and I won't. ... 

And oh the invitation looks better and better with each passing minute until you can just physically touch it. 

Scripture says (1st Corintians .10 :13) No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.

One of your ways of escape is to just walk in the opposite direction from the beginning. When your head begins to tell you that you have nothing to worry about, that you are in control, that you are over analyzing the situation; that's the time you need your feet to run very far from that invitation that MAY lead you to  compromise your morals, your beliefs, your faith, your resolution etc. You can never get burnt if you are no where near the fire. 

Temptations are everywhere. ..on a daily basis the opportunity to do the wrong thing comes knocking. The difference between whether you fall for it and let God, yourself and your loved ones down lies in the choices you make at those times. You always have a choice. 

You know your weaknesses,  these are areas in which you struggled at one point in your life and fell over and over again until you finally got a grip on that area...even though now your mind is very sure you'll never fall again, I'd like to inform you that your flesh hasn't and will never get that memo.  

How to fight temptation: Take the way of escape...there is always a way of escape. Take it. Don't stand there and try to fight it because your flesh would not fight with you. 99% of the time your flesh will let you down. Just flee, its better to be safe than sorry... thus take the way of ESCAPE FROM whatever it is that's tempting you at that time. 

You'll be glad you did

Have a very good week ahead 

Nutty Jay 

Tuesday, May 5, 2015


Its been ages!!!! I think the last time I blogged (here) was 2-3 months ago???

I know what the problem is... it's not writer's block, because I have been writing on other platforms yes I can still write thank you. I think the problem is that this blog has fulfilled the purpose for which it  was created in the first place.

I was in a dark place and since the only way I'd ever known how to find release/light  was through writing, I decided to find a place where all my worries/issues could be highlighted without fear of criticism or nosey people calling me to 'explain' what I meant, like I was getting from facebook friends whenever I wrote a 'note' on facebook.

This blog helped me alot to talk about things annoymously that normally I wouldn't tell anyone. After all I am that friend that has her sh*t together, the one who always had the sound advice for everyone else with issues, no no no far be it from me to spoil that illusion they had that I was cool, calm and collected like that...far be it from me to have issues of my a matter of fact whenever I tried to bring up an issue, it was usually laughed off like 'this one no serious, it's not en as we were saying...'

Anyways, Nutty Jay's World helped me alot (2010,2011,2012,2013), not only could I freely talk about my opinions, ideas, struggles, annoyance etc, I could also talk about the past of way way back and lessons I've learnt.

But  '...there's a time and season for everything'. This blog has served it's purpose, and I think that's why I'm struggling to write here these days. I've done alot of growing up and I no longer have reasons to talk about the things I want to talk about anonymously. These days the things I want to write about are not consistent with the original plan and purpose for which this blog was created... it restrains the flow. Nowadays I just do random posting on my facebook notes, other people's blog, facebook pages etc. I plan on opening another blog, or a website (still don't know how to go about the website thing)...but it's still a plan.

Talking about purpose, do you know what yours is? If a common blog had a purpose and has served it's purpose, I'm sure you know you have to find out why you were created to be on this earth, born into the family you were born into, why you are currently where you are now, and what you should be doing per time.

In a totally unrelated issue, I just want to say folks that life is beautiful...yes it is complex, complicated, fun, painful, glorious, joyful, a struggle sometimes but simply beautiful. All the different aspect of life are inter-woven to bring us all to an expected end. So why do we hold on so fiercely to the past? Your mistakes, your heartbreaks, your 'could have been', 'should have been' and 'I wish it went like so' moments? Why do we try to figure things out that we would never get answers to, why do we spend time hoping and wishing  for a second chance to make things right, or maybe this time you will do things differently that will make them treat you right-er than they did before?

People of God there are no second chances in the past.... today is your second chance, tomorrow is your second chance. Don't spend today wishing you did things differently yesterday, because then you will spend tomorrow wishing you had done things differently today. Stop trying to build what God is trying to kill...when you've done all you can and prayed all you can, leave it and move on...we all know when to let go, we just keep deceiving ourselves. Find your purpose in life and pursue it till you fulfill it

God wants to give you beauty for ashes... but you must first give up the ashes, let go of the ashes, stop beating yourself over things you can not change. You cannot receive the beauty if you insist on holding on to the ashes.

Learn from the past, but let go of the past. Do better today, not because you are trying to compensate for yesterday...but because it is the right thing to do.

See you later

Nutty Jay