Monday, March 21, 2011

Somethings have been happening…

I’m in a relationship again. As in not just dating like I’ve been doing, NUTTY J is in a steady relationship. I don’t know how to process it, this is one I never planned for, infact this is a guy I’ve been resisting since 2009 but somehow somehow I find my self smiling and saying:

‘’Nice to meet you’’ whenever he says
‘’meet my girlfriend’’

Bobo* is a sweet guy…he is good, he treats me like golden egg, he is generous, he shows me love like I havent gotten in a while. He has charmed my mum and aunt and uncle…my brothers like him. Even my 3 and 5 year old cousins jump on him for an embrace when he comes visiting.

So why I’m I not announcing it from the roof top? I don’t frigging know. Maybe I’m waiting to feel butterflies in my stomach first…maybe I’m doubting if anyone could love anyone so much…weird right? but seriously I feel he has evil intentions for me…like he is saying in his mind:

’eh en, shey you have been playing hard to get…I go soon catch you finish now you will see

…again maybe I’m just scared of falling in love joor. I cant get my heart to work that way.

So sometimes I push him to the wall…waiting for him to say something, get upset…get jealous, get super annoyed. But no he doesn’t ... I mean even I get annoyed with some of the things I do & say, so how come he doesn’t?

Anyways that is something I’m still pondering on.

I miss sex…I miss sex a lot. Abstinence is not easy.

I’m considering buying a rabbit/bunny… I still havent been able to convince myself that its not a sin. If I can convince myself…then I’ll buy one. I heard its guaranteed to give me the orgasm guys havent been able to give me till I stopped sex

My legs/hips have been troubling me much of late. I have been forbidden to take the pain relievers that actually supresses the pain because my continuous use of it has given me ulcer…and ulcer is a terrible terrible thing. So I go about limping these days…Deji* always hold me up when we walk together. Sweet guy. I hope I get my healing from God soon or do the operation soon.

I fear if I do the operation I may no longer be able to do pilates… that troubles me more than undergoing the operation itself

My HOD in the office has been demoted, so automatically all those under her including me have been brought down a notch or two. I cant help laughing at the whole thing. It beats crying sha

I’m beginning to drink a lot these days…sometimes I convince myself its for my stomach sake…other times I just dont care.

I have missed you guys. Sorry for the long absense.

Thanks to the man who gave me the award for lovely blog. Seven things about me like the condition for the award states you can find here

Love you all



  1. I hope everything goes for you as planned. Being in love is a beautiful beautiful thing, please nuture your relationship...good guys are hard to come by. Best of luck. Muah.

  2. lol @ the way u think, but i cant blame u, anything is possible. well give him a chance but shine ur eyes. hopefully u'll gist us if it all goes good.

  3. Your excitement shines through the post. Passing by and saying "hi" :)

  4. Hmnnnn....your life is good!The excitement's aaahmaaahzin..just that i worry bout your leg cos im having the same issues, but I've been using this vibrating foot spa been helping a lil...take care of you! per the 'Deji'- THOU HAST BEEN SHOT BY CUPID>>.lol best wishes#winks

  5. its been a while since u blogged. glad u're back!
    are u sure u love this guy? u sound like he's the one doing all the loving while u'r not feeling him as much :/

  6. If you can bring yourself to,give the guy a chance.Sorry about the pain and i also pray you get a healing from God,it beats operation.Goodluck!

  7. Mamuje: Yes ooo...good guys are scarce so i'm gonna channel my efforts to making this work with God's grace.

    Chizy: How I for do na...we don too see things. Hopefully the gists to come wud be good ones

    Jaycee: Thanks for stopping by...

    Wild Boy: For real? apart from the Vibrating foot spa, what else do you use?

    Kitkat: I love him for how he loves me...isnt that okay for now? lol

    A-9ja-Great: Amen ooooo....ya I'mgonna give him a chance. Who no like peace? lol

  8. ...and I thought I had guts! here's someone openly sayin how much she misses sex!! LOL bold mehn!

    Ok first time on your blog and I love your authenticity. I hope you get well soon and hope the love evolves into something even more beautiful and lasting.

    Oya follow me back... am following u now :)

  9. lol..just started reading ur lovve eet!!!.. thing is are u sure u really like dis deji guy cos yes u've mentioned all his beautiful attributes but it seems to me that deep down u like d idea of him but u dnt like him...

  10. Congrats ma...enjoy it and try and relax and just feel ok.

    Pls get the operation soon if you can and take care of yourself please

    take care

  11. Nonye: You are welcome na blog na, I gats to talk everything as I feel am na.

    Fani: Thanks for stopping by...its one step at a time shey, I love how he loves me and very soon my love will grow...shey?

    Neefemi: Girly!!! long time...thanks for the best wishes...i'll keep you posted


    Now thats out of the way, Babe you dont seem overly excited and thats a good thing as far as i am concerned. Your feet are firmly on the ground with this. Still make sure you enjoy it fully but no using his name to write poems things for now sha.

    How we go do this lef mattaer na? Na prayers oh! Still God has a purpose for your life and it is well.x




  13. bruhahahaha...mena laugh wan kill me with your comment.

    Write poem ke? I dey craze? I no do that love in Tokyo thing again no see say I hide the poem? I for delete am but I like looking at it sometimes to admire me talent...hahaha

    Dont worry, I'll keep you posted.

  14. just take it slowing, your excitement about the relationship shines in the post.

    I miss sex too, abstinence no be beans oh.

  15. OMG! I'm in the same relationship boat with you oh. It's like you were writing from my head. But like Lara says, you do seem to like him :p

    So sorry about your ulcer and legs. Not funny. Hope you get better oh



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